SPM month. fighting! :D

baby top and taeyeon ♥ fighting together with me! :p

yea, the day had arrived. the day that all of us were scare of it's presence but hoping it to pass faster too XD so, i started my spm this monday. and 5 subjects was down! i'm soooo happy :D cause 4 more to go then i'm freeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ 

but i'm so disappointed with myself! i did so bad in english section b essay, sejarah and maths paper 1. sejarah papers disappointed me the most. i stayed up late till 4am just to fight for it. the one last time. but the questions really dragging me to hell :(

and i really got so stress yesterday night until i cried when i was doing my revision halfway :/ because i'm poor in maths subjects, i got no confidence with it while other people just relax and having their good time sleeping there. i always thought of, why i can't be like them? why i can't remember the syllabus well like them ? i keep asking myself. why? can someone tell me ? 

while the paper is going on this morning, i tried my best to do it. but guess what ? i didn't finish my paper 1 and just pass up like that! with some empty answers! i cried a little when the examiner said that the time is up :( I CAN'T FKING BELIEVE THAT! I DID THIS SHIT IN MY SPM PAPER! FML!  but luckily paper 2 got my mood back :) hope it can save me *pray hard* luckily we got one week off. it's time to rest then fight for the rest of the subjects! :D 

goodnights :) loves ♥